nearing the end? no?

its edi the middle of the month of nov.. and i've been sitting idle at the site office for a few weeks now.. or maybe edi more than a month..not really sure.. finally get the news or rumour that we will be allowed to resume our testing and commissioning work on next week and the handover date has been confirmed to be on 31st dec.. hopefully no more changes.. recently my mood tends to be quite stable.. not as emo as before.. this weekend will have the chance to enjoy abit since my friends will be coming to penang for a few days.. after enjoying this weekend.. its war again if the so called "news" or rumour is true.. i estimated that the testing and commissioning work will be done by mid dec if we start work on next week.. this few days i'm constantly wet after dinner as it rains for very long and i'm not patient enough to sit at the restaurant and wait for the rain to stop.. furthermore, alot of ppl is waiting for seats.. paiseh to occupy the seat..mum is currently in china now..on vacation.. yesterday din sleep really well. keep on dreaming about mum.. and keep on dreaming those scene where i'm leaving kl to penang.. times that i hate the most.. and due to these kind of nonsense dreams.. my mood is definitely not good.. considering there will be at least 5 more weeks before i can go home again.. i really hope that the handover date will not be changed anymore.. i dun 1 2 stay in penang for any longer.. i need to spend some time in kl.. i mean a month or 2..not a few days.. eventhough staying in kl will mean that my pay will be much lower.. but i still think its worth it.. wat is the point of getting alittle bit more if it makes me feel sad.. furthermore, life is not all about earning money.. other kind of needs is equally important.. i need friends, i need my family and my gf as well.. unfortunately, they are all in kl.. and another thing is, i've been working in this industry for 6 months now.. and still i dun know wat to do.. i mean should i opt for another industry that is more stable but obviouly pay less or remain for longer.. my concern is, wat if in a few years time i found out that my current industry doesn't suit me? then i will need to start from zero when i'm entering another industry.. maybe i will try to adapt... i'll give myself til june 2011.. if it really doesn't work.. its time to find another job in another industry..

wat is the meaning of working life?

this is the 2nd week i'm back here in penang.. i consider myself quite lucky this time around coz i dun need to work on sunday.. last sunday was the 1st time i had my breakfast at nearbymamak.. unexpectedly, it makes me feel so comfortable mentally.. this half an hour breakfast session means alot me.. this is the most relaxing moment since i'm here in early june.. and of course since this week i dun have to work on sunday as well..i went out for breakfast again.. again..its damn relaxing.. working life seems to be so dull and meaningless..u work for the whole month just to get the pay at the end of the month.. and every week..the oni thing to look forward to is the breakfast session on sunday morning..that also provided i'm not working on that particular sunday.. as i have mentioned in my previous post, i will oni be allowed to go home during deepavali.. but looking at the situation now..i think i will oni be allowed to go home at the end of nov.. but latest will be going home at 26th nov.. coz the project will need to be handover on that day.. so it simply means that all the works must be done before that date.. out of 5 test that i'm in charge of.. i can say 1 1/2 of it is done.. others need to wait for the incoming of the eletricity on 19th oct..previously was told that the electricity will be in on 11th oct.. but they delayed it..dun know y.. next friday os coming to penang for 3 days.. at least won't be alone for the whole 2 months.. up to now.. everything is still ok.. big prob did not arise... just some minor ones.. hopefully either the testing will be done before deepavali or my project manager will allow me to go home during deepavali and continue the testing after i come back to penang.. 1-2days din do testing won't affect very much.. when come back penang edi, everyday work ot lo..sure can finish on time.. anyway, i'm looking forward to 26th nov.. i can't imagine what kind of feeling that i will have to handover my 1st ever project.. i'm sure the feeling will be extremely good..

How to survive this..

its the 3rd day i'm back here in penang.. did nothing much..most of the time preparing test sheets.. heard that the testing is planned to be started on 11th Oct.. as usual, dun have any special feeling towards it.. just hope can finish it up as soon as possible.. i hope everything can be done in 3 weeks time.. since there is still 1 and a half week time before testing, i'm trying my best to finish up filling all the test sheets with whatever info that i have.. i planned to proceed doing the copper pipe pressure test report latest by next monday.. after this particular report is done.. the other reports for other tests will be done very quickly as i dun need to take photo for it.. just need to fill in the info..actually from now, there is still 6 weeks before the week on deepavali.. at 1st tot of going home on every 3rd week..and asked os to come over to penang to find me so that i can send her back kl at the weekend..but my Project Manager says that we will oni be allowed to go home after the testing..which means, i need to wait for the deepavali holiday.. and although os is still coming on the 3rd week of Oct, but she will need to travel home alone from penang which makes me feel so bad.. another thing is, before this, my highest record is staying in penang for 5 weeks without going home.. now forcefully set new record..6 weeks.. now the 1st week also haven't pass.. how am i gonna endure this.. its not easy..at least for me, its really not easy.. i like to stay at home and not constantly outstation.. but unfortunately, my job requires me to do so.. i'm trying my best to comfort myself..hoping that the testing period is not as busy as i have expected and that my manager will change his mind in letting me go home on the 3rd week of Oct.. I'm thinking how long will it take to make me completely demotivated..actually now edi demotivated, just that haven't reach the lowest point.. now it seems that i have nothing to look forward to.. 6 weeks from now is too far to be looked forward.. now i really wish my parents are damn rich or edi retire..so that they can just come and visit me anytime i need them.. i know i'm childish..but i really did hope so..

Testing testing 123~~~

the title sounds like i'm testing a mic and that i'm gonna write about a karaoke sessions.. but that is so wrong.. i dun have that kind of time for this kind of activity.. tomolo need to start "testing and commissioning" at work site.. lots of test sheets to fill in..with lots of info to fill in.. 165 of them X2.. and there is other forms also which i'm lazy to think now.. the more i think, the more stress ar.. but this is the path that i must go through.. or else, can't handover the project and will never have the chance to leave penang.. haiz..i 1 2 skip that "testing and commissioning" and straight handover the project.. and yeah!!! i'm free~~ dream abit now la.. or else, tomolo no semangat to perform the testing ar.. but now i'm lazying around as i really dun feel like filling up the test sheets now.. and the testing is at 11am tomolo..swt.. but still refuse to do it now.. my life will be meaningless if after work still need to think about work.. at 1st i tot testing is the most fun and relaxing part as this will be the final stage in a project.. but it turned out to be very stressful.. printing the test sheets also used 1 ream of a4 paper and 1 ream of a3 paper.. imagine filling up those test sheets alone..swt.. hopefully the test will run smoothly.. oni "testing and commissioning" will cost me a month.. again really hope that i can leave penang by nov or earlier.. and again i would like to say, i dun hate penang, just that its too far from home.. in order to motivate myself, i asked my friend for dinner on tomolo nite..asked him to bring me to georgetown for the so called famous curry mee after 1 hectic day.. looking forward to the dinner tomolo..but definitely not looking forward to the testing..

eliminated..

went back home last thursday for the Hari Raya holiday.. it supposed to be a happy weekend.. but it turn out to be not so happy anyway.. the plan is like this.. thursday and friday will spend with parents and sat will be dedicated for somebody's bday as agreed earlier before i came back.. however, things seems to be not right on last friday afternoon.. somebody sms me telling me that she wanted to go somewhere at nite which i can't make it coz i'm having dinner with dad on that particular day.. supposingly, the dinner should be on sat night.. but due to the bday thing..i bring forward the dinner.. and now that somebody is saying that i'm too family oriented..and i dun give a shit about her.. i really dun understand..most of the time, i will oni manage to stay at kl for 3 days (inclusive of friday nite where i will oni reach home by 9.30pm or 10pm..) and i never fail to allocate 1 whole day for her.. and my other 1 day is shared between my parents( mostly) and friends(seldom meet nowadays).. and due to this kind of so called "unfairness" that she had claimed.. she "eliminated" me.. fine.. my parents will always be the most important person to me.. i can't do anything with that..i'm their oni child.. if i dun care bout my parents..who would..ok.. and that somebody is not the oni 1 who "eliminated" me.. even my credit card is trying to eliminate me.. yesterday nite went to tesco to buy something but end up buying oni some breads for my breakfast.. and on the way home, i decided to pump petrol at the petrol station since we are passing by.. and can save my time pumping it this morning.. i always start my journey from kl to penang around 5am.. due to some procedural error.. my credit card transaction failed.. for numerous time.. finally paid by cash and borrowed 1 credit card from mum so that i can at least buy petrol even when i have no cash in my wallet..today and tomolo will be boring coz 1 of the subcon is not coming til wed.. so i guess i'm gonna sit in the site office and prepare the test sheet for the "testing and commissioning".. the installation works under my supervision is 90 over % done.. although i'm not that happy now.. at least i can look forward to next weekend.. coz i will be going home again for grandma's 80th bday.. and at the same time go back to HQ to settle some stuffs..although its oni 12 days from going home again.. it really feels very very very damn long.. and thinking of oct dun have holiday at all.. more sienz..maybe will opt to go home once every 3 weeks.. then ngam ngam deepavali can go home again.. btw..now need to face the reality 1st..its just the 1st day i'm here in penang again..

bad luck coming my way..

its a typical thursday nite.. suddenly my form 6 friend asked me for a so called farewell dinner tomolo nite..was quite happy..at least dun need to stay at hostel lo.. can chat abit with friend.. ya..talking bout bad luck.. i think my luck is really not that good for this few months since started working..maybe this job bring no "ong" to me..hehe.. 2 months back.. when i was back in kl.. i drove my mum's car to curve to have my hair cut since my mum help me to send my cute little kelisa for maintenance.. however, even b4 i reach curve, i burst 2 of my mum's tyre which cost around rm700.. walao~ but luckily mum absorb the cost for 1 tyre as she say the tyres needs to be changed acually.. but i still feel bad and insisted on paying for 1 of the tyre.. ok.. while stuck at the road side, i called my friend for help..dun say i'm so weak..change tyre also need friends help.. u need to remember..its 2 tyres that i burst.. and there is oni 1 spare tyre.. and hence i need some1 to help me to buy a new tyre.. and another thing is, my mum always mumble saying that i dun pump air frequently into the spare tyre..and great.. her spare tyre is not pumped also..cis.. luckily my friend came to help me.. i burst the tyre around 11 something.. and 4 something oni we gao dim the whole tyre changing process.. then hor..another big "surprise".. the car battery rosak edi..can't start the car.. wtf.. then again my friend drive to the nearest shop to get them for me.. and at the end i left that place at 5 something without getting my hair cut.. sienz.. suppose to go out with os at 1pm..end up around 6 something oni see her at her hostel.. that was a saturday.. and i'm going back penang on monday morning at 5am..damn sad..suppose to spend 1 day with os and sunday with mum.. now end up spend few hours with os oni..but mum is being understanding.. she asked me to accompany os on the sunday morning.. then another "surprise".. dun know whether to call it a good 1 or a bad 1..on sunday evening.. i've got high fever and sore throat..(due to standing under the sun for the whole day and without a drop of water into my mouth during the tyre changing process).. and hence..sunday nite went to see doctor and got 2 days mc..but hor, i just rest for 1 day, then the next day went back to penang to work.. now oni realized how stupid i am.. just rest 1 more day la..act hardworking pulak..cis..then stay in penang about 2 weeks oni fully recover.. then today related to my car pulak.. i scratched my collegue's car while reversing my car while going out for lunch..(coz that "parking space" at site is very narrow and small).. actually his car not that bad la.. if see from 2 metres, cannot see anything also.. oni minor scratches.. actually my car lagi teruk.. but i dun give a damn 1 la.. mine is a old car..(his 1 also la..) so i told him and ask him to tell me the price for repairing after he get it done..(actually hor..i think the mechanic also dun know how to repair..coz oni some minor scratches.either repaint the whole thing or dun repair at all..) however, i will still pay him la.. i'm also not too stupid to blindly believe the price that he will be telling me.. coz although i'm not a penangite, i have workers who are and they edi told me inclusive of knocking out the deformed part(which is not applicable in this case) and repainting (which is applicable in this case)..it cost around rm60 oni..a big relieve.. but need to drive to jelutong la.. but not far la.. worth it.. if next monday after he repainted his car and he ask for more than rm50..i will kindly show him my middle finger..coz actually i dun like him.. damn lazy ppl.. and 1 ppl to gao dim things for him when he is also getting paid.. haiz.. see how la.. maybe he won't repair also..then i dun need to pay at all..haha.. o ya..reverse back the story 1st.. my friend told me to repay him for helping me to change and buy the tyre etc etc by treating him drink..(of course not coke la..big boy edi..1 2 drink liquor pulak..haiz..) and i did treat him and my fellow best friends on 21st august.. but they are being so kind to me.. i know they dun like to drink beer at all..but for the sake of saving money for me.. they all ordered beer.. this kind of friends where to find..hehe.. and the most "gam dong" part is they insist that i go clubbing with them even when i refuse coz i'm not interested and abit tired la..(clubbing cannot sit down.. must stand all nite..hehe) they treated me back pulak..they dun let me pay.. haiz.. then ma like i never treat u all also.. i've got my third month salary on last 28th.. that was my third month's pay.. my 1st 2 months pay edi dried up edi.. now got money left from 28th aug pay.. but hor.. sept is os's bday, my grandma's grand bday and i need to go back kl twice this month which means rm180 x 2=rm360 just for toll and fuel..wa..die lo.. haiz..nvm la.. sept's pay sure can start saving money edi..ok..its 11.32pm now.. need to sleep edi.. tomolo need to work.. will be yet another tiring day..sienz.. just for the sake of money~~~

ps: my boss told me that i've been comfirmed as a permanent staff, just that the document is not done yet.. yays.. can get my company t-shirts(dun need to crack my head wat to wear), can ask HR apply for CIDB and BEM( BOARD OF ENGINEERS MALAYSIA).. actually can apply myself. but if company apply for me..they pay for my member's fee ma..nyek nyek nyek.. and on top of the list.. another rm200 per month.. it helps abit.. better than nothing..

Life after convo

its already the 31st of August.. 10 days after my convocation, i'm here stuck in penang again..but thank god i dun need to wait for another 1 whole month to go home for this time around..next week can go home on thursday..thanks to Hari Raya..hehe..last week was a tiring 1.. worked for the whole week.. no rest day for me.. most of the time worked til 7 something.. then dinner around 8pm.. its indeed very tiring..but at least i know my works will be completed before Hari Raya..yeah!! after Raya will be doing Testing and Commissioning..then can leave penang lo.. by the way, life after convo is still the same.. still dull.. but at times challenging especially while at work at site.. i've been losing weight this few months.. getting slimmer.. i've spent all my pay for the previous 2 months..but at least can start saving money this month.. i'm not overspending..just that i've got alot of expenses even before i started working.. glad that i've settled all my debt to my mum...i mean financially la..i will never manage to repay my debt to her.. my convocation is actually very enjoyable.. can meet with friends.. took some photos and update abit about life after graduation.. back to my work.. i seriously think that human skills is utmost important..technical skill is really not that significant.. what is the point of having a strong technical skill but the person who is implementing it doesn't listen to you.. hopefully this sunday dun need to work lo..i really 1 a day off la.. although i've rest today.. and my new "activity" during weekend when i'm not working is strolling to tesco extra near my hostel and buying junk food.. although i dun buy cheap junk food.. i spent less than rm50 per month on that.. i'll try to reduce that la.. spending on junk food is not good at all.. and most important is i can instead save the money for my 3 meals.. looking forward to going out with mum on next Friday and os on next Saturday which is on her bday.. if there is time..i would like to go yum cha with my friends too.. see how lo.. very excited to go home on next Thursday la..haha..

with my lovely mum

with os the grumpy auntie..haha

my tutorial group

monday blues?

its again another monday.. although there is oni 11 days left before i can go home.. i dun know y i'm suddenly so emo.. really wanted to go home now.. but of course i can't.. my convo is on next saturday.. so no matter wat.. i need to tahan til next thursday.. cannot tahan also must tahan.. being poor is not fun at all.. just because of money.. i dun have any freedom.. it seems like i sold my life to my company.. i can't really decide on my life now.. the oni thing i can decide is on which week of the month do i 1 2 go home.. but that is limited to once for each month..if i'm a rich kid then it would be sooo good.. even if i need to work til 6pm on saturday..i can just drive to the airport and buy a ticket on the spot.. the price is not a problem if i'm rich la.. then every weekend also can go home.. then this job will bring me satisfaction.. i can learn things that is not taught in the uni by working in this company..indeed, there is alot that can be learned by working in this company.. alot of exposure.. and maybe mental endurance is also a form of "training" here.. need to endure the slight pressure which might accumulate everyday and on top of that.. when in weekend.. another form of pressure hits me badly..i misses home alot.. although i din really spend time with my family when i'm at home during my student life..but i enjoy their presence.. i feel peace and comfortable.. here is all bad.. its not that the collegue here is very bad or wat.. even if they are really bad i won't care.. i couldn't care less.. all i want is the peaceful and comfortable feeling i have at home which its very obvious i can't get it here (penang).. while in penang, even when there is nothing to do, i seldom stay in the site office.. i rather go and take a walk aorund the construction site and maybe find some1 to have a small chat about the progress and things like that.. last time this method works in making the time passes quickly.. but nowadays it tends to be useless.. no matter how many time i walk around the construction site.. the time passes really slow.. i have walked the whole site just now. and its just 12.10pm.. my subcon will b coming to work after lunch time.. hopefully they will make some significant progress.. or at least work til 5pm so that i dun need to think of ways to kill time.. i'm so hopeless..haiz..

ok.. its the 3rd month of my working life.. i'm less emo now and most of the challenging prob is solved.. i mean, up to this point la.. in construction, everyday sure got prob..just a matter of big prob or small prob.. got my 2nd month of pay.. finally managed to repay the debt to my mum..and luckily still left some to survive.. relieve.. and this month is also quite meaningful as this will be the last month for my probation.. if nothing goes wrong.. i will be a permanent staff and of course my pay will be revised as well..hehe.. i'm back to money oriented edi.. the real me..nyek nyek.. but today i regretted something.. i might have been a little emo when i was called to the site to settle a prob.. its like this 1.. last week i asked the ceiling guy to cut open 8 big holes for me so that once the aircond is on site..i can ask the people to install it..tot the prob have been solved since i dun need to ask the ceiling guy to help anymore..he even asked me whether i'm really confirmed.. he won't allow any changes.. then after 1 week.. which is today.. i received a call from my senior asking me to go to that affected place.. when i reach there.. they say they need to install lighting where i cut the holes for my aircond.. being the hot tempered me.. of course angry lo.. last week dun 1 2 say.. now 1 2 install oni say.. furthermore, i followed the drawing.. so i'm thinking..wtf.. the resident engineer for electrical then said, tolongla.. haiz.. am really angry..but wat to do, then i say oklo.. i shift.. but who is going to ask the ceiling guy to settle the prob.. the ceiling guy sure will get angry and for sure will extra charge us.. but the resident engineer say he will settle for me la.. then i ma oklo.. since he is willing to take the responsibility and ask the ceiling guy to open another 4 holes for me.. however..i will go and settle the things with him as i dun 1 the position of the holes that i have intended is made at the wrong place..then more sanfu.. and back to y i regretted for getting angry without 1st analyzing the prob and talk with an open heart.. maybe i'm just too frustrated at that moment la.. coz my things all settle edi.now say need me to shift.. now i learnt another lesson.. whenever any prob arise.. dun get angry 1st.. take a deep breath and think how to settle the prob.. in the end, both of us also 1 to finish our job oni ma.. really feel sorry now for being angry with that resident engineer although i didn't shout or speak loudly..but my face is obviouly angry lo.. i am so sorry mr resident engineer (i mean electrical 1, the mechanical 1 sucks.. always lecture me and repeat the same thing again and again).. 19th aug go home lu.. 3 more weeks..hehe.. now earn money and settle as many prob as possible 1st.. so that can go home without worrying about work..

Is this what I have wanted?

1 week have passed.. and tomorrow start a new week again..go to the dusty, hot and stressful construction site for another 6 days, then rest for 1 day..this cycle repeats itself again and again.. this week i'm quite emo..not happy for the whole week.. was sick, but recovered..not fully but still ok.. work is not as smooth as before.. but at least today try to find a solution to solve it.. i promise myself i will get it done by next weekend so that i might be a little bit happy or at least relieved.. no matter how..i still misses my family alot.. the main reason for me being emo is mainly because i miss my family.. my gf is so good to plan to come to penang to find me even when she is not free.. but i told her not to come, at least not now coz i can't spend much time with her in penang as i'm working from 9am to 6pm.. that includes saturdays.. she will be very boring when i'm not at home.. furthermore, i dun 1 her to take bus alone to and fro penang.. thinking of it makes me worry and sad.. today mum called me in the afternoon coz she doesn't know how to on9 using my com at home so that she can print out something that she need in order to collect my graduation attire.. however, after spending some time explaining to her what to do.. she still din manage to on9..i'm not sure its my com prob or its my mum prob.. anyway, there is still a plenty of time to do that..at least 3 more weeks.. this time i can only go home on the 5th week i'm back in penang.. now its oni the 1st week.. there is 4 more weeks to go.. i think the time passes very slow this time around.. i 1 2 go home now.. how i hope i can rewind the time to the pass where i'm still in primary or secondary school.. that time is the best..i have alot of friends that i can talk to..i can see my parents everyday.. have home cooking.. and the oni thing to worry is the final exam.. when i was younger, i told myself that i'm gonna earn alot of money when i graduated.. now that i've so called achieved that (my pay is considered high for a fresh grad).. i found out that i'm not happy at all.. the oni benefit i can see from working is the pay i get at the end of each month..other than this.. nothing seems to be good.. in order to do my job justice..this job is actually quite good where the pay is high and i get alot of exposure.. however, this job also cause me to spend very limited time with my family.. its less than 10% for the whole month.. that also 8 hours spent on the highway.. y is it so unfair le.. i tends to hate penang in general and the construction site in particular.. i wonder would i be happier working at a construction site near home or at least a place where i can travel home every weekend.. i've oni worked for this job for the 2nd month..i edi feel so unhappy..i wonder how am i gonna continue..however..i will tahan til at least 1 year.. i'm giving myself time to adapt..the 1st time i came here, i went home after 2 weeks, then 4 weeks, and now i can oni go home on the 5th week.. maybe many ppl will say that its oni 1 week more than previously..its actually easier to say than done.. when u r in a very unfamiliar place and virtually no friend at all.. its such a torture.. i think wat my friend told me is quite right..i chosed my current job for money and exposure oni..not really like it.. i think i have been mumbling here for too long..no matter what i write here.. i still have to face the reality..i still need to work..i still need to wait no matter how long it takes til the day i'm going home.. i just hope the prob i'm facing at the construction site will be solve by next week.. and the coming week will be super busy so that i won't have time to think of other stuffs.. but seriously, i'm not ready to face tomolo.. i'm very afraid that the solution that i'm proposing will be rejected by the architect and i will need to crack my head yet again..and i will be even more emo.. i really need some luck and really really hope that everything will go smoothly til the week i'm going home.. one last word..penang is not my hometown and i hate it even when its actually a good place..what a dilemma..

balik kampung..

for 23 years, whenever other people ask me where is my hometown or am i going back to hometown during cny holiday.. my answer will always be i dun have hometown.. my hometown is selangor or in other words, my home is my only hometown.. now different edi lu.. now my "home" is in penang, and my hometown is selangor.. 4 hours drive away from home.. will only go back to my real home once in a month..and it last for less than 72 hours.. it seems so unfair..its more unfair when i think i spent 8 hours driving to and fro my home.. now i kinda understand y those people insist they 1 2 go home once they have the chance eventhough they might end up in massive traffic jam.. just like cny reunion.. some of them will onl have the chance once in a few months.. at least i'm entitled to go home once in a month.. one of the saturday dun need to work and they dun deduct my pay.. consider okla.. tomolo night can go home lu.. i edi settle my job up to this point..hopefully tomolo won't have any "surprise" that will require me to stay til dinner time.. if everything goes smoothly, then i might go home at 4 something.. hopefully la.. 1 and a half hour earlier start my journey means earn 1 and a half hour of quality time with family.. now working edi feel so helpless.. can't really spend time with family.. the only thing i can do is give them some money to buy stuffs eventhough the amount i'm giving them is insignificant.. and treat them good food or something like that.. at least i will feel better lo.. sometimes i'm thinking, it will be better if i've got a younger bro or sis.. so that at least when i'm working farawar from home.. they can help me take care of my parents.. and i can work care free.. without worrying anything might happen to them and i can't be there on time.. i know i think too much.. but i just think oni la.. its fated that i'm their only child..i have to bear all the responsibilities lo.. up to this point..i owe my mum around rm1600.. my credit card expenses and for buying myself a gps phone which i seldom use.. but now my money in my bank acc left rm1500 oni..haiz.. tot of paying the whole sum of money to my mum.. but not enough.. and i still need money to survive in penang ma.. argh..28th july fast fast come.. i need MONEY.. in dire need indeed..but after this month.. i will be able to save money edi.. coz all debt to my mum will be cleared..hehe.. and i'm quite thrifty once i started working..go tesco also spend alot of time comparing prices only decide wat to buy.. but everytime also choose those cheap and more quantity 1 lo.. haiz.. i think i'm the most poor engineer in the world.. my breakfast never changed.. tiger biscuit and a glass of milk.. lunch and dinner either mixed rice or noodle.. everyday the same.. i limit myself not to spend more than rm15 per day.. and i did succeed most of the time.. sometimes fail when pass by tit bits area in tesco.. that also once in a blue moon oni la.. nowadays purposely dun 1 2 pass by there edi.. so can save myself from spending unnecessarily..

a guy named SUTANI~~

since working, everything is fine til today..my job requires me to write site diary everyday and submit everyday.. i have been submitting the same format as the previous ones all the while.. and the consultant chop and sign it without ever complaining..but today, the damn bloody brainless dick head consultant says that my site diary is RUBBISH.. when ask him y he says that its rubbish since he edi chop and sign it for 2-3 weeks without complaining.. his answer was: coz its rubbish.. swt.. he can't find a reason for it.. then simply say that its rubbish.. of course i was very angry at that time..its very clear that he 1 2 cari pasal oni.. i went back to office and checked the "site diary" file.. the format is exactly the same with mine since august 2009.. and he signed a few hundred of them without ever complaining.. now suddenly say its rubbish.. i tot of asking him y he still sign those site diary if he think that those are rubbish.. for 1 year summore wor.. i think this jackass is mentally unstable.. if he thinks that those site diary are rubbish but still chop and sign it.. wouldn't it mean that he is worse than a pile of rubbish.. and before this, i tot consultants must be technically very strong and should help others when a technical prob arise.. now i know those are all bullshit.. consultants are good at talking cock oni.. just complain alot..but when consult them for solution, tell us to think ourself..he never give any idea.. coz he really dun have idea ma.. wat to do.. ma just act smart and do nothing lo.. then occasionally "fat san king" to show how committed they are to their job.. where in fact their job has been backlogged for months.. no wonder others call him "sutani" which means "sohai" in bangladeshi language.. i should have chose to work in a consultant firm instead.. just need to act smart and dun need to crack ur head to settle prob.. maybe these are the main quality of a "successful" consultant.. lan c, act smart, complain alot when they dun know how to solve prob..and let all their job backlog for months, or will never do.. coz they are oni good at mumbling..heard that this dickhead's contract ends in august.. hopefully his contract won't be extended.. i dun need a dickhead consultant.. rather dun have consultant at all.. makes my life easier.. however, no matter how much i hate him..i still need to hand in the so called RUBBISH to him everyday til August..omg.. please calm me down..dun make me kill him.. I'll be leaving this project site in Oct..sabar yf..very fast oni..haiz.. sutani~~ sutani~~~

1 month gone

i've got my pay on the 28th..every month also 28th will automatically get my pay.. tot of treating myself better on that day.. tot of ordering western food (stall 1 la..which cost around rm6 - rm 8) coz i really din have any "good" food since i started working.. but ended up ordered prawn noodles which cost me rm3 coz "mm se tak".. 1 2 save money.. haiz.. but eventually, on the next day i treated myself the western food that i have wanted to try.. coz that particular day is really busy and i''m quite tired and hungry.. drinks also "upgrade" abit..ordered coke.. usually "leong cha" oni.. its edi the 2nd weekend since i last went home.. so sienz at hostel..tomolo planning to go to Queensbay Mall.. the people here told me that its quite big and got lots of thing.. go browse around and see how lo.. better than sitting at home watch tv for the whole day..no astro summore.. usually my oni entertainment for the weekend is the newspaper.. i dun buy it on weekdays coz dun have time to read and again, 1 2 save money.. poor guys like me is like that 1 la.. always thinking of saving money oni..

i'm pretty much used to the place that i'm living now.. construction site also quite familiar, at last know who to find when need to settle something..

working here is so different with uni.. the so called "assignments" can't be done by myself.. like it or not, i need to rely on others..coz i'm a project engineer who give orders and not implementing it..really need good human skills.. the assignment i'm handling now is very much in progress.. now oni i know working as project engineer also got free lunch 1 wor.. those contractor will treat us for lunch.. maybe so that in future can get project easier guar.. i'm not in power to do anything also.. they treat us, i ma eat lo..hehe.. 1st month edi had free lunch for twice.. not mixed rice or other cheap stuff ok.. but not very exp also la..considered decent la..

here are some photos of my daily life working..

my construction site office

drawings that will make u headache

the construction site

some of the "ular-king" resting

foreign workers "shopping" outsite the construction site

my best companion at site

work life at a construction site

this is edi the 6th day i'm here in penang USM working at the construction site.. the condition here can be considered to be moderately harsh.. the roads are all muddy and if i'm not careful enough.. my boots and jeans will get all wet and very dirty.. another thing is the weather is so damn hot.. sometimes need to stand under the sun to check whether the contractors are working or are they doing works according to the specification.. i'm so damn dark now.. when going home that time must bring a long sleeve shirt along so that i can wear it at site.. dun need to get sun burn everyday.. being a project engineer is not that physically demanding, just that requires some walking around the site and constantly under the sun.. that is the oni thing i dun like about this job.. the people here is quite friendly and willing to teach me.. i'm glad about that.. but everyday dinner also eating alone as they have their own activity.. everyday after work, my activity is go home and take bath, then go nearby dinner then go home again to watch tv and online.. some of the time, i will go to tesco to buy some stuffs.. spent some time there comparing prices before buying.. i seldom do that previously, but now its one of my "activity" here.. thank god there is a washing machine provided in my home at penang.. just throw in my dirty cloth and press a button and everything will be done.. tonight everyone is going to leave for home which means i will be all alone at home for this weekend.. but nvm la.. got world cup matches to watch.. at least there is a tv here.. my senior told me this particular project here will be completed by oct.. hopefully earlier la.. and i pray that i will be posted to a new project which is situated nearer to my home.. preferably is oni selangor, perak and negeri sembilan.. then ma can go home every weekend or twice a month.. curently can only go home once in a month..i heard that my company is getting a new project in kulim, kedah.. more far.. and my project manager went to find a new office nearby.. keep my finger crossed that i will not be posted to kulim.. tolong~~ tolong ~~~

A boring start..

4 days have passed since the 1st day i started work.. this few days in office doing nothing..just constantly read those ISO document as well as previous project file.. today really cannot tahan edi, i practiced my chinese writing for the whole day.. astually was told by the GM to go to penang on thursday(3rd June).. but i told him that i need time to settle my things before going there.. so, i'm going to penang on next monday instead.. might spend a few months there for the project.. its dealing with the construction of cleanroom at USM.. i heard the project is in the testing and commissioning phase edi..so maybe after 1 or 2 months will be assigned to another project.. its either to Ipoh or PJ..hopefully PJ la.. near ma.. can go home everyday..but i think most probably also go Ipoh after the project at USM.. coz need alot of people.. i really dun know wat to expect..these few days try my best to spend more time with my parents and my gf.. after this will only manage to come home once or twice in a month.. haiz.. and 1 more thing.. i haven't even get my 1st month paycheck and i edi need to spend money buying gps phone.. i decided to get a E71 Nokia.. coz my friends recommended it although the model is quite old.. actually the main function i need is the gps oni.. start work edi become more broke.. so cham..okla..really tired, update at a later time.. maybe a long long time as i'm very very busy at site starting next week..all the best to me..

A new start..

So my 3 weeks holiday is over.. need to face the reality edi..tomorrow i will start leading my working life..dun know wat to expect..but for sure it won't be as fun as going for lectures and movies after lecture lo.. everything is fixed..9am to 6pm.. and most of the time not in kl..most of the time having outside food.. most of the time under pressure..sienz.. up to this moment, i think the only motivation i have is the pay that i will get at the end of the month lo.. which is not much..but at least earn some lo.. my work doesn't require me to wear formal as the company will provide me with the company t-shirt.. coz i'm always at construction site ma.. wear so smart for wat.. so hot there.. but i'm glad that at least i'm not working under the sun la.. but the prob is, i haven't get my t-shirt.. so now headache whether to wear formal or smart casual.. 1st day le.. 1st impression is damn important.. haiz..sienz with talking bout my job..talk about something happy la.. my gpa for my final sem is quite good.. very surprise also.. and my fyp, although my work is not exceptionally good, i manage to get an "a-" for it.. six credit hours le.. hehe.. and my cgpa also is higher than wat i have aimed for..

During these past 3 weeks din really do much la.. 2 weeks spent on helping mum and lazying at home.. and 4 days of it spent on a trip to perhentian.. its really very beautiful and not crowded like redang.. might go there for the 2nd time at a later time.. took airasia to and mas from terengganu..actually suppose to buy kota bharu.. but din know earlier.. lazy to talk so much la.. here are some photos..

fauna chalet resort

everyday malay meal, but at least the cook cooks well..

3 gay lou at perhentian pulau besar

got cut by coral

at shark bay, not going down since my hand is bleeding...dun 1 2 lose my hand..

arwana resort swimming pool

go back lu..

2 more weeks~~

Time flies..2 more weeks and i will be graduating.. 4 years also so fast.. glad and sad at the same time.. glad coz dun need to study anymore..at least for now..erm..actually still need to study for 3 subjects la.. if not can't graduate.. sad coz need to start working edi.. all the people that started working told me that studying is much more fun than working.. once they started working, their life tends to be dull and full of unwanted pressure.. i dun know yet..coz haven't start working..but soon lo..1st of June..sienz..3 weeks of holiday oni.. throughout these 4 years.. most of the time also spend on studying.. so its considered as dull also la.. die la.. studying also so dull edi..working sure become more dull.. these photos will prove my dullness in life during these 4 years...

study

study

study and calculating how long does it takes to settle my PTPTN loan..haiz

still studying (but very sleepy)

never give up! the bed won't tempt me to sleep unless I finish studying

My life is not only dull..very pressure summore.. actually during my 2nd year oni la.. coz at that time, my "Mechanical Engineering Design" lecturer assigned us to make a product in few weeks time..start from scrap wor.. the assignment carry a very heavy marks summore.. as if that is not "fan" enough.. at that time also, I'm the badminton manager for FES (my faculty).. the Sports Club president want me to organized the 1st ever badminton competition..and actually i'm doing all the things by myself.. cannot really harap others.. to make things worst..the management takes so damn long to approve my proposal..they take 3 months even when the proposal is only roughly 10 pages.. i sent the proposal for approval on Oct 2007 and the competition is to be held on Feb 2008.. can u imagine.. end of January oni approve.. if they dun approve, i can't start doing my job (booking court, open registration, etc) they need 3 months to look at 1 damn bloody proposal and expect me to get all my jobs done in merely 1 month..haiz..thats y that particular semester is so damn pressure..tickle me also i won't manage to smile.. but at least all my hard work is spent on realizing the 1st ever closed badminton competition.. although oni 10 teams participated.. 1st time ma..give chance abit la.. dun complain..here are some of the photos..

during the finals

prize presentation to the 1st runner up

prize presentation to the champion

Due to limited resources, the 1st runner up gets a badminton bag (they need to share..omg..so swt la..) and the champion better abit la..get a badminton bag and 2 wrist band (very swt also..the bag need to share, but at least they dun need to share the wrist band..) actually what the players really 1 is this..

trophies

this 1 not so swt la..every player will get 1 for each of them.. but the challenge trophy(the tallest 1) must return to uni.. not bad la.. at least got the small 1 as remembrance..can show to grandchild in the future provided it doesn't corrode..hehe..

erm..ya..forgot something.. i edi found a few jobs and decided which job that i want.. actually i've got 3 offers..2 from listed company and 1 is not.. the listed once are dealing with trading of engineering materials and the other is more on manufacturing.. whereas the 1 which is not listed is in the construction industry..most of the people will surely choose the listed company but my choice is different..i prefer the construction company coz it interest me more and i can meet more people.. so, out of warehouse exec, design engineer and project engineer..i chosed project engineer.. before this..i'm worried that i can't manage to get a job due to my not so good cgpa..but in fact, now the thing that makes me "fan" is too many choices..different industry summore..but i'm glad that i've finally decided..

okla..need to continue studying for the 3 papers..

PEACE~~ *ignore the fat guy beside me*

Updates~~

ok.. 3 months has passed by since the last time i update my blog..i myself oso shock after seeing the date of my last entry..i used to be very discipline.. won't stop half way.. anyway..now update la..

today went for the 2nd interview at kota kemuning.. the jobscope is actually better compared to the 1st interview.. although the 1st company is a public listed company, but i can't gain much technical knowledge from there.. therefore, up to now, i prefer today's company..coz more technical knowledge can be gained and i have a better chance of securing the "Ir" title if i'm working with today's company.. anyway, those are not really important as i have not done my fyp presentation.. its on next tuesday.. anyway, presentation is nothing to me.. at least my fyp report has been completed and submitted.. furthermore.. this semester i'm sitting for 3 papers only.. will be free after 10th Oct.. after exam go perhentian for 3 days..then most probably June start working..haiz.. really no life..start working right after the finals.. haven't even convo summore.. but still feel happy coz manage to find job even with my poor cgpa.. and can start to earn money edi.. yes.. money is very important to me.. i dun mind being a slave as long as u reward me accordingly..hehe..

I wonder how is life gonna be after i graduated..for sure will work la.. but i mean whether i will have no life anymore? work and sleep, work and sleep.. or still got life.. and whether I will manage to save as much as i have planned.. dun know la.. dun 1 2 think..still have about 2 months before i start working..now enjoy alittle 1st la..

Not too bad~~

the chinese zodiac book says that 2010 is not an auspicious year for the tigers.. health not good la..safety also not good la..wealth also not good la and even studies also not good..die lo..that means the whole year also very unlucky lo.. anyway, up to now, my luck is not as bad as they have predicted..at least 841 is in the parking sticker list..yeah..hehe.. at first din put any hope on it.. edi mentally prepared to wake up at 6.30am everyday so that i will manage to get a parking outside utar..so happy..no need to be so stress always finding for parking..and lunch time also dun need always eat canteen's awful food..can go out and eat..at 1st tot of buying the number for 4D.. but eventually din buy also.. luckily din buy, coz the number never came out.. time flies..its edi the 2nd week of my final semester..after lazying around without doing my fyp..i finally made an appointment with my supervisor and met him today.. i can confirm that all that i can do is already done..yes~~~ but the bad news is, he oni managed to recruit 1 new student to work on this project.. i need 3 students le.. but nvm la.. as my friend say, my part is already done..why bother..actually if the whole project cancel also won't affect me la.just feel alittle bit sayang lo.. plan for so long edi..but not enough students to work on it..starting from this week..i no more working out at gym edi..the gym i went edi closed down.. finding a new gym that suits me financially and the location as well.. my kiasu spirit is coming back.. i'm starting to study edi although its oni the 2nd week..must get very high gpa.. i dun 1 2 get very low cgpa le.. i dun 1 2 be jobless after graduating.. if not, until 30 years old also need to drive kelisa..cham.. maybe should have plan B..that is continue studying for Masters..and study very kiasu-ly for the whole year..then oni find a job..hehe..maybe i should attend the post graduate studies seminar held in utar pj campus on this sat.. but 4 hours le.. must seriously consider..

ever changing dreams..

its been a few months since i started to workout at gym..although i can hardly notice any difference in my body size..but at least i manage to tone up abit.. talking about going to gym.. i just started to go to a new gym which is bigger and with more machines (and of course those per entry type..not those monthly 1) about few weeks ago.. which makes u feel more motivated to workout.. unluckily, its going to be closed down end of this week.. sad..i'm quite used to that gym edi..dun really like changing places..this makes me think that it will be very good if i'm a super rich guy who can own a private gym at home..then ma no need to go to other places and can workout whenever i 1.. i used to wish to have an indoor badminton court in my house..then later wish to have a pool table at home..and then later..wish to have a table tennis table..and finally now wish to have a private gym..but all of it remain as a dream..i'm just a "poor scholar" who merely survive with his pocket money.. being a student is fun and enjoyable minus the part that i dun have money lo.. if studying can get paid just like working then ma good lo..i will study forever.. i'll be graduating in a few months time, dun know what will happen after i graduate.. i said before that i will be the most kiasu student in utar for my final semester..however, til the 3rd day of my new sem, i still dun have the fighting spirit with me..but i won't blame myself la.. dun have note and books also haven't buy..nothing to read also..no matter how kiasu also nothing i can do up to this moment.. this few days alot of people ask me how's my FYP..whether i have finished it.. this question is so difficult to answer..coz i feel that i have nothing more that i can do but i dun dare to say that i have finish up my work.. at least i haven't compile my report..anyway, that will only cost me at most 3 days.. coz most of the thing is copy and paste from what i have done.. just need to spend some time thinking of how to write the Conclusion chapter and its done.. i tot of bringing my camera to uni everyday for this sem and simply simply take photos for the whole sem.. and during the end of the sem can collect all the photo for remembrance..need to sleep now..tomolo morning got class and the ballot result for the parking sticker will be out tomolo morning..very gan jiong..hopefully 841 will be 1 of the number in the list..