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for 23 years, whenever other people ask me where is my hometown or am i going back to hometown during cny holiday.. my answer will always be i dun have hometown.. my hometown is selangor or in other words, my home is my only hometown.. now different edi lu.. now my "home" is in penang, and my hometown is selangor.. 4 hours drive away from home.. will only go back to my real home once in a month..and it last for less than 72 hours.. it seems so unfair..its more unfair when i think i spent 8 hours driving to and fro my home.. now i kinda understand y those people insist they 1 2 go home once they have the chance eventhough they might end up in massive traffic jam.. just like cny reunion.. some of them will onl have the chance once in a few months.. at least i'm entitled to go home once in a month.. one of the saturday dun need to work and they dun deduct my pay.. consider okla.. tomolo night can go home lu.. i edi settle my job up to this point..hopefully tomolo won't have any "surprise" that will require me to stay til dinner time.. if everything goes smoothly, then i might go home at 4 something.. hopefully la.. 1 and a half hour earlier start my journey means earn 1 and a half hour of quality time with family.. now working edi feel so helpless.. can't really spend time with family.. the only thing i can do is give them some money to buy stuffs eventhough the amount i'm giving them is insignificant.. and treat them good food or something like that.. at least i will feel better lo.. sometimes i'm thinking, it will be better if i've got a younger bro or sis.. so that at least when i'm working farawar from home.. they can help me take care of my parents.. and i can work care free.. without worrying anything might happen to them and i can't be there on time.. i know i think too much.. but i just think oni la.. its fated that i'm their only child..i have to bear all the responsibilities lo.. up to this point..i owe my mum around rm1600.. my credit card expenses and for buying myself a gps phone which i seldom use.. but now my money in my bank acc left rm1500 oni..haiz.. tot of paying the whole sum of money to my mum.. but not enough.. and i still need money to survive in penang ma.. argh..28th july fast fast come.. i need MONEY.. in dire need indeed..but after this month.. i will be able to save money edi.. coz all debt to my mum will be cleared..hehe.. and i'm quite thrifty once i started working..go tesco also spend alot of time comparing prices only decide wat to buy.. but everytime also choose those cheap and more quantity 1 lo.. haiz.. i think i'm the most poor engineer in the world.. my breakfast never changed.. tiger biscuit and a glass of milk.. lunch and dinner either mixed rice or noodle.. everyday the same.. i limit myself not to spend more than rm15 per day.. and i did succeed most of the time.. sometimes fail when pass by tit bits area in tesco.. that also once in a blue moon oni la.. nowadays purposely dun 1 2 pass by there edi.. so can save myself from spending unnecessarily..