monday blues?

its again another monday.. although there is oni 11 days left before i can go home.. i dun know y i'm suddenly so emo.. really wanted to go home now.. but of course i can't.. my convo is on next saturday.. so no matter wat.. i need to tahan til next thursday.. cannot tahan also must tahan.. being poor is not fun at all.. just because of money.. i dun have any freedom.. it seems like i sold my life to my company.. i can't really decide on my life now.. the oni thing i can decide is on which week of the month do i 1 2 go home.. but that is limited to once for each month..if i'm a rich kid then it would be sooo good.. even if i need to work til 6pm on saturday..i can just drive to the airport and buy a ticket on the spot.. the price is not a problem if i'm rich la.. then every weekend also can go home.. then this job will bring me satisfaction.. i can learn things that is not taught in the uni by working in this company..indeed, there is alot that can be learned by working in this company.. alot of exposure.. and maybe mental endurance is also a form of "training" here.. need to endure the slight pressure which might accumulate everyday and on top of that.. when in weekend.. another form of pressure hits me badly..i misses home alot.. although i din really spend time with my family when i'm at home during my student life..but i enjoy their presence.. i feel peace and comfortable.. here is all bad.. its not that the collegue here is very bad or wat.. even if they are really bad i won't care.. i couldn't care less.. all i want is the peaceful and comfortable feeling i have at home which its very obvious i can't get it here (penang).. while in penang, even when there is nothing to do, i seldom stay in the site office.. i rather go and take a walk aorund the construction site and maybe find some1 to have a small chat about the progress and things like that.. last time this method works in making the time passes quickly.. but nowadays it tends to be useless.. no matter how many time i walk around the construction site.. the time passes really slow.. i have walked the whole site just now. and its just 12.10pm.. my subcon will b coming to work after lunch time.. hopefully they will make some significant progress.. or at least work til 5pm so that i dun need to think of ways to kill time.. i'm so hopeless..haiz..