nearing the end? no?

its edi the middle of the month of nov.. and i've been sitting idle at the site office for a few weeks now.. or maybe edi more than a month..not really sure.. finally get the news or rumour that we will be allowed to resume our testing and commissioning work on next week and the handover date has been confirmed to be on 31st dec.. hopefully no more changes.. recently my mood tends to be quite stable.. not as emo as before.. this weekend will have the chance to enjoy abit since my friends will be coming to penang for a few days.. after enjoying this weekend.. its war again if the so called "news" or rumour is true.. i estimated that the testing and commissioning work will be done by mid dec if we start work on next week.. this few days i'm constantly wet after dinner as it rains for very long and i'm not patient enough to sit at the restaurant and wait for the rain to stop.. furthermore, alot of ppl is waiting for seats.. paiseh to occupy the seat..mum is currently in china now..on vacation.. yesterday din sleep really well. keep on dreaming about mum.. and keep on dreaming those scene where i'm leaving kl to penang.. times that i hate the most.. and due to these kind of nonsense dreams.. my mood is definitely not good.. considering there will be at least 5 more weeks before i can go home again.. i really hope that the handover date will not be changed anymore.. i dun 1 2 stay in penang for any longer.. i need to spend some time in kl.. i mean a month or 2..not a few days.. eventhough staying in kl will mean that my pay will be much lower.. but i still think its worth it.. wat is the point of getting alittle bit more if it makes me feel sad.. furthermore, life is not all about earning money.. other kind of needs is equally important.. i need friends, i need my family and my gf as well.. unfortunately, they are all in kl.. and another thing is, i've been working in this industry for 6 months now.. and still i dun know wat to do.. i mean should i opt for another industry that is more stable but obviouly pay less or remain for longer.. my concern is, wat if in a few years time i found out that my current industry doesn't suit me? then i will need to start from zero when i'm entering another industry.. maybe i will try to adapt... i'll give myself til june 2011.. if it really doesn't work.. its time to find another job in another industry..

wat is the meaning of working life?

this is the 2nd week i'm back here in penang.. i consider myself quite lucky this time around coz i dun need to work on sunday.. last sunday was the 1st time i had my breakfast at nearbymamak.. unexpectedly, it makes me feel so comfortable mentally.. this half an hour breakfast session means alot me.. this is the most relaxing moment since i'm here in early june.. and of course since this week i dun have to work on sunday as well..i went out for breakfast again.. again..its damn relaxing.. working life seems to be so dull and meaningless..u work for the whole month just to get the pay at the end of the month.. and every week..the oni thing to look forward to is the breakfast session on sunday morning..that also provided i'm not working on that particular sunday.. as i have mentioned in my previous post, i will oni be allowed to go home during deepavali.. but looking at the situation now..i think i will oni be allowed to go home at the end of nov.. but latest will be going home at 26th nov.. coz the project will need to be handover on that day.. so it simply means that all the works must be done before that date.. out of 5 test that i'm in charge of.. i can say 1 1/2 of it is done.. others need to wait for the incoming of the eletricity on 19th oct..previously was told that the electricity will be in on 11th oct.. but they delayed it..dun know y.. next friday os coming to penang for 3 days.. at least won't be alone for the whole 2 months.. up to now.. everything is still ok.. big prob did not arise... just some minor ones.. hopefully either the testing will be done before deepavali or my project manager will allow me to go home during deepavali and continue the testing after i come back to penang.. 1-2days din do testing won't affect very much.. when come back penang edi, everyday work ot lo..sure can finish on time.. anyway, i'm looking forward to 26th nov.. i can't imagine what kind of feeling that i will have to handover my 1st ever project.. i'm sure the feeling will be extremely good..

How to survive this..

its the 3rd day i'm back here in penang.. did nothing much..most of the time preparing test sheets.. heard that the testing is planned to be started on 11th Oct.. as usual, dun have any special feeling towards it.. just hope can finish it up as soon as possible.. i hope everything can be done in 3 weeks time.. since there is still 1 and a half week time before testing, i'm trying my best to finish up filling all the test sheets with whatever info that i have.. i planned to proceed doing the copper pipe pressure test report latest by next monday.. after this particular report is done.. the other reports for other tests will be done very quickly as i dun need to take photo for it.. just need to fill in the info..actually from now, there is still 6 weeks before the week on deepavali.. at 1st tot of going home on every 3rd week..and asked os to come over to penang to find me so that i can send her back kl at the weekend..but my Project Manager says that we will oni be allowed to go home after the testing..which means, i need to wait for the deepavali holiday.. and although os is still coming on the 3rd week of Oct, but she will need to travel home alone from penang which makes me feel so bad.. another thing is, before this, my highest record is staying in penang for 5 weeks without going home.. now forcefully set new record..6 weeks.. now the 1st week also haven't pass.. how am i gonna endure this.. its not easy..at least for me, its really not easy.. i like to stay at home and not constantly outstation.. but unfortunately, my job requires me to do so.. i'm trying my best to comfort myself..hoping that the testing period is not as busy as i have expected and that my manager will change his mind in letting me go home on the 3rd week of Oct.. I'm thinking how long will it take to make me completely demotivated..actually now edi demotivated, just that haven't reach the lowest point.. now it seems that i have nothing to look forward to.. 6 weeks from now is too far to be looked forward.. now i really wish my parents are damn rich or edi retire..so that they can just come and visit me anytime i need them.. i know i'm childish..but i really did hope so..

Testing testing 123~~~

the title sounds like i'm testing a mic and that i'm gonna write about a karaoke sessions.. but that is so wrong.. i dun have that kind of time for this kind of activity.. tomolo need to start "testing and commissioning" at work site.. lots of test sheets to fill in..with lots of info to fill in.. 165 of them X2.. and there is other forms also which i'm lazy to think now.. the more i think, the more stress ar.. but this is the path that i must go through.. or else, can't handover the project and will never have the chance to leave penang.. haiz..i 1 2 skip that "testing and commissioning" and straight handover the project.. and yeah!!! i'm free~~ dream abit now la.. or else, tomolo no semangat to perform the testing ar.. but now i'm lazying around as i really dun feel like filling up the test sheets now.. and the testing is at 11am tomolo..swt.. but still refuse to do it now.. my life will be meaningless if after work still need to think about work.. at 1st i tot testing is the most fun and relaxing part as this will be the final stage in a project.. but it turned out to be very stressful.. printing the test sheets also used 1 ream of a4 paper and 1 ream of a3 paper.. imagine filling up those test sheets alone..swt.. hopefully the test will run smoothly.. oni "testing and commissioning" will cost me a month.. again really hope that i can leave penang by nov or earlier.. and again i would like to say, i dun hate penang, just that its too far from home.. in order to motivate myself, i asked my friend for dinner on tomolo nite..asked him to bring me to georgetown for the so called famous curry mee after 1 hectic day.. looking forward to the dinner tomolo..but definitely not looking forward to the testing..

eliminated..

went back home last thursday for the Hari Raya holiday.. it supposed to be a happy weekend.. but it turn out to be not so happy anyway.. the plan is like this.. thursday and friday will spend with parents and sat will be dedicated for somebody's bday as agreed earlier before i came back.. however, things seems to be not right on last friday afternoon.. somebody sms me telling me that she wanted to go somewhere at nite which i can't make it coz i'm having dinner with dad on that particular day.. supposingly, the dinner should be on sat night.. but due to the bday thing..i bring forward the dinner.. and now that somebody is saying that i'm too family oriented..and i dun give a shit about her.. i really dun understand..most of the time, i will oni manage to stay at kl for 3 days (inclusive of friday nite where i will oni reach home by 9.30pm or 10pm..) and i never fail to allocate 1 whole day for her.. and my other 1 day is shared between my parents( mostly) and friends(seldom meet nowadays).. and due to this kind of so called "unfairness" that she had claimed.. she "eliminated" me.. fine.. my parents will always be the most important person to me.. i can't do anything with that..i'm their oni child.. if i dun care bout my parents..who would..ok.. and that somebody is not the oni 1 who "eliminated" me.. even my credit card is trying to eliminate me.. yesterday nite went to tesco to buy something but end up buying oni some breads for my breakfast.. and on the way home, i decided to pump petrol at the petrol station since we are passing by.. and can save my time pumping it this morning.. i always start my journey from kl to penang around 5am.. due to some procedural error.. my credit card transaction failed.. for numerous time.. finally paid by cash and borrowed 1 credit card from mum so that i can at least buy petrol even when i have no cash in my wallet..today and tomolo will be boring coz 1 of the subcon is not coming til wed.. so i guess i'm gonna sit in the site office and prepare the test sheet for the "testing and commissioning".. the installation works under my supervision is 90 over % done.. although i'm not that happy now.. at least i can look forward to next weekend.. coz i will be going home again for grandma's 80th bday.. and at the same time go back to HQ to settle some stuffs..although its oni 12 days from going home again.. it really feels very very very damn long.. and thinking of oct dun have holiday at all.. more sienz..maybe will opt to go home once every 3 weeks.. then ngam ngam deepavali can go home again.. btw..now need to face the reality 1st..its just the 1st day i'm here in penang again..

bad luck coming my way..

its a typical thursday nite.. suddenly my form 6 friend asked me for a so called farewell dinner tomolo nite..was quite happy..at least dun need to stay at hostel lo.. can chat abit with friend.. ya..talking bout bad luck.. i think my luck is really not that good for this few months since started working..maybe this job bring no "ong" to me..hehe.. 2 months back.. when i was back in kl.. i drove my mum's car to curve to have my hair cut since my mum help me to send my cute little kelisa for maintenance.. however, even b4 i reach curve, i burst 2 of my mum's tyre which cost around rm700.. walao~ but luckily mum absorb the cost for 1 tyre as she say the tyres needs to be changed acually.. but i still feel bad and insisted on paying for 1 of the tyre.. ok.. while stuck at the road side, i called my friend for help..dun say i'm so weak..change tyre also need friends help.. u need to remember..its 2 tyres that i burst.. and there is oni 1 spare tyre.. and hence i need some1 to help me to buy a new tyre.. and another thing is, my mum always mumble saying that i dun pump air frequently into the spare tyre..and great.. her spare tyre is not pumped also..cis.. luckily my friend came to help me.. i burst the tyre around 11 something.. and 4 something oni we gao dim the whole tyre changing process.. then hor..another big "surprise".. the car battery rosak edi..can't start the car.. wtf.. then again my friend drive to the nearest shop to get them for me.. and at the end i left that place at 5 something without getting my hair cut.. sienz.. suppose to go out with os at 1pm..end up around 6 something oni see her at her hostel.. that was a saturday.. and i'm going back penang on monday morning at 5am..damn sad..suppose to spend 1 day with os and sunday with mum.. now end up spend few hours with os oni..but mum is being understanding.. she asked me to accompany os on the sunday morning.. then another "surprise".. dun know whether to call it a good 1 or a bad 1..on sunday evening.. i've got high fever and sore throat..(due to standing under the sun for the whole day and without a drop of water into my mouth during the tyre changing process).. and hence..sunday nite went to see doctor and got 2 days mc..but hor, i just rest for 1 day, then the next day went back to penang to work.. now oni realized how stupid i am.. just rest 1 more day la..act hardworking pulak..cis..then stay in penang about 2 weeks oni fully recover.. then today related to my car pulak.. i scratched my collegue's car while reversing my car while going out for lunch..(coz that "parking space" at site is very narrow and small).. actually his car not that bad la.. if see from 2 metres, cannot see anything also.. oni minor scratches.. actually my car lagi teruk.. but i dun give a damn 1 la.. mine is a old car..(his 1 also la..) so i told him and ask him to tell me the price for repairing after he get it done..(actually hor..i think the mechanic also dun know how to repair..coz oni some minor scratches.either repaint the whole thing or dun repair at all..) however, i will still pay him la.. i'm also not too stupid to blindly believe the price that he will be telling me.. coz although i'm not a penangite, i have workers who are and they edi told me inclusive of knocking out the deformed part(which is not applicable in this case) and repainting (which is applicable in this case)..it cost around rm60 oni..a big relieve.. but need to drive to jelutong la.. but not far la.. worth it.. if next monday after he repainted his car and he ask for more than rm50..i will kindly show him my middle finger..coz actually i dun like him.. damn lazy ppl.. and 1 ppl to gao dim things for him when he is also getting paid.. haiz.. see how la.. maybe he won't repair also..then i dun need to pay at all..haha.. o ya..reverse back the story 1st.. my friend told me to repay him for helping me to change and buy the tyre etc etc by treating him drink..(of course not coke la..big boy edi..1 2 drink liquor pulak..haiz..) and i did treat him and my fellow best friends on 21st august.. but they are being so kind to me.. i know they dun like to drink beer at all..but for the sake of saving money for me.. they all ordered beer.. this kind of friends where to find..hehe.. and the most "gam dong" part is they insist that i go clubbing with them even when i refuse coz i'm not interested and abit tired la..(clubbing cannot sit down.. must stand all nite..hehe) they treated me back pulak..they dun let me pay.. haiz.. then ma like i never treat u all also.. i've got my third month salary on last 28th.. that was my third month's pay.. my 1st 2 months pay edi dried up edi.. now got money left from 28th aug pay.. but hor.. sept is os's bday, my grandma's grand bday and i need to go back kl twice this month which means rm180 x 2=rm360 just for toll and fuel..wa..die lo.. haiz..nvm la.. sept's pay sure can start saving money edi..ok..its 11.32pm now.. need to sleep edi.. tomolo need to work.. will be yet another tiring day..sienz.. just for the sake of money~~~

ps: my boss told me that i've been comfirmed as a permanent staff, just that the document is not done yet.. yays.. can get my company t-shirts(dun need to crack my head wat to wear), can ask HR apply for CIDB and BEM( BOARD OF ENGINEERS MALAYSIA).. actually can apply myself. but if company apply for me..they pay for my member's fee ma..nyek nyek nyek.. and on top of the list.. another rm200 per month.. it helps abit.. better than nothing..

Life after convo

its already the 31st of August.. 10 days after my convocation, i'm here stuck in penang again..but thank god i dun need to wait for another 1 whole month to go home for this time around..next week can go home on thursday..thanks to Hari Raya..hehe..last week was a tiring 1.. worked for the whole week.. no rest day for me.. most of the time worked til 7 something.. then dinner around 8pm.. its indeed very tiring..but at least i know my works will be completed before Hari Raya..yeah!! after Raya will be doing Testing and Commissioning..then can leave penang lo.. by the way, life after convo is still the same.. still dull.. but at times challenging especially while at work at site.. i've been losing weight this few months.. getting slimmer.. i've spent all my pay for the previous 2 months..but at least can start saving money this month.. i'm not overspending..just that i've got alot of expenses even before i started working.. glad that i've settled all my debt to my mum...i mean financially la..i will never manage to repay my debt to her.. my convocation is actually very enjoyable.. can meet with friends.. took some photos and update abit about life after graduation.. back to my work.. i seriously think that human skills is utmost important..technical skill is really not that significant.. what is the point of having a strong technical skill but the person who is implementing it doesn't listen to you.. hopefully this sunday dun need to work lo..i really 1 a day off la.. although i've rest today.. and my new "activity" during weekend when i'm not working is strolling to tesco extra near my hostel and buying junk food.. although i dun buy cheap junk food.. i spent less than rm50 per month on that.. i'll try to reduce that la.. spending on junk food is not good at all.. and most important is i can instead save the money for my 3 meals.. looking forward to going out with mum on next Friday and os on next Saturday which is on her bday.. if there is time..i would like to go yum cha with my friends too.. see how lo.. very excited to go home on next Thursday la..haha..

with my lovely mum

with os the grumpy auntie..haha

my tutorial group